[PinkFreak]

I struggle with this information in a couple different ways:

1. I’ve ALWAYS believed that what other people get paid is their business. Period. Until now, when I find out the difference.
2. I was never offered a chance to this position, which I am more qualified for.
3. In the past, if I’m in someone’s office that may have confidential information, I just don’t look. I don’t want to know more than I am supposed to. That is also why if I see something laying around that at 1st glance could be confidential I make sure I get it to someone who wouldn’t be affected by any confidential information. I’ve worked in offices for some time now where I can hear stuff or see stuff that isn’t meant for me, and I try not to put myself in a position where I have information I shouldn’t so that I have no chance of spilling confidential info accidently.
4. The way I received this information was a HUGE error in our HR dept. and if I say anything, it could affect her job or her credit greatly, and I just don’t want to be that person. BUT… I could so benefit from this knowledge.
5. I love my job, love the company I work for, enjoy coming to work every day… until now. It’s killing me to know that I work my but off, go above & beyond my “job description”, and someone comes in and gets compensated substantially more than I do. Especially when I am more qualified! This has happened before so I don’t know if it’s just me, because I’m fat & unattractive, because I don’t advocate for myself, or just so stupid that I can’t demand more.

I sit at my desk holding back tears almost all day. I’m not mad at the girl they hired, and I don’t think I’m actually mad at my company. I’m just disappointed that they think I’m not worth as much as someone else, and disappointed in myself for not being able to stand up & say something 